LONE ENDEAVOR
AS A mother looked idly through a small medical journal, an article
written by a doctor on alcoholism caught her attention. Anything in
reference to this subject was worthy of perusal, for her son, an only
child, had been drinking uncontrollably for years. Each year of his
drinking had added new heartaches, though every small ray of hope had
been investigated, and though he had tried desperately to stop. But
little had been accomplished. He was occasionally able to remain sober
for short periods at a time, but things constantly became worse.
So this mother read the short medical article with a heavy heart, for
she was constantly on the alert to find something which might prove
helpful to her son.
The article gave only a vague hint of the solution found by many
alcoholics, which is fully covered in this book, but the mother
immediately wrote to the doctor explaining her heart-breaking problem,
and requesting further information. She felt there must be help
somewhere, and surely if other men had recovered from alcoholism, her
sonalso had a chance.
The doctor turned her letter over to Alcoholics Anonymous. It ended as
follows:
God knows if you can help my son, it will bring happiness to many
of us who love him and ache with him in his futile effort to overcome
his problem.
Please accept my gratitude for whatever you may be able to do and
let me hear from you.
A few days later the following letter was sent to this mother. It was
our initial effort to help others through the book alone.
About a hundred men, here in the east, have found a solution for
alcoholism that really works. We are now preparing a book hoping to
help others who suffer in the same way, and are enclosing a rough copy
of the first two chapters. As soon as possible we will forward rough
copy of the rest of the proposed book.
We received no answer for some time, and later wrote again:
We are sending you a pre-publication multilith copy of 'ALCOHOLICS
ANONYMOUS.' We would appreciate hearing about your son's condition and
his reaction to this volume, as this is the first time we have had an
opportunity of trying to help an alcoholic at long distance.
Won't you please write us?
Sincerely,
Alcoholics Anonymous
After another period of silence from the far west, during which time
we began to think this book was inadequate without personal contact, we
received a long letter from the son, himself. A letter which we feel
will be of tremendous help to others who live in distant places, who
feel alone and totally unable to work this program out by themselves. A
letter which encompasses a man's solitary effort to take what we had to
offer and carry the program through alone. Alone except for one book and
the help which printed pages could give; alone until he had tried our
program of recovery and found spiritual comfort and help.
He wrote as follows:
I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for your letters
and for 'ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS.' I have read this book from cover to
cover and it is really the first time I have read anything dealing
with alcoholism that made sense and showing understanding of the
problems of the alcoholic.
I found the personal stories very accurate as pertaining to my own
experience; any one of them might have been my own story.
I started drinking in 1917 when I was 18. I enlisted in the army,
soon became a non-commissioned officer, went overseas as a sergeant. I
associated with older men, drank, gambled, and ran around with them,
sampling everything France had to offer.
Upon my return from France I continued drinking. At that time I
could get plenty tight at night, get up in the morning and go to work
feeling O.K. The following fifteen years were one drunk after another
which, of course, as they got worse, meant one job after another.
Police Department truck driving, etc. Then in an attempt to get away
from it all I enlisted in the U. S. Marine Corps. In 13 months time I
drank very little and was promoted to Gunnery Sergeant, a rank that
usually takes 10 or 12 years to obtain, if ever. I started drinking
again. In six months I was reduced to Line Sergeant. I transferred to
get away from my former associates.
Then came several years in China. China of all places for a man who
wanted to stay away from booze. My four years over, I did not
re-enlist.
Came more jobs selling automobiles, real estate, etc. Then down to
odd jobs. I was drinking so much no one could take a chance by giving
me a steady job, such as I could easily have handled if I left the
liquor alone. I married and the booze split that up. My mother was a
nervous wreck. I was getting arrested for drinking three or four times
a year. I had myself committed on two different occasions to State
Hospitals, but soon after discharge, I was back at it again. Two years
ago I went to a private hospital for a liquor cure. A week after
getting out I was curious as to what would happen if I took a drink. I
took it- nothing happened. I took another- why go further. I went back
to the private hospital, came out and was O.K. for a few months- then
at it again.
Now previous to this and at the time of these cures, I was working
at a State Hospital for the insane. I saw continually the effects of
liquor but did it help me to leave it alone? No- it did not. But it
did make me realize that if I did not, I would end up in the
bug-house and someone else would be carrying the keys.
After several years of working at mental institutions always in a
violent ward, on account of my six feet 2 inches and 210 lbs., I
realized there was too much nervous tension and every couple of months
I would blow up and be off drunk for a week or ten days.
I left mental work and got a job at the County General Hospital
where I am now in a medical ward. We get quite a few patients with
D.T.s, all broken out with wine sores, etc. I steadied down a bit, but
not enough. I was off 'sick' for several days every six or eight
weeks.
I married again. A good Catholic girl whose people were used to
having liquor, especially wine around the house always. She of course
could not understand about my drinking-as far as that's concerned,
neither could I. And all this time my poor mother and wife became more
and more worried.
Mother had heard of your wonderful work and wrote a doctor. You
answered with letters, and finally the book. Before the book arrived
and after reading the chapters I knew that the only way to combat this
curse was to ask the help of that greater Power, God. I realized it
even though I was then on a binge!
I contacted a friend of mine who is laison officer of the Disabled
Veterans of the World War. He made arrangements for my care in a State
Sanitarium which specializes in alcoholism. I wanted to get the liquor
out of my system and start this new idea right. I explained my absence
as 'Flu' and under the care of the head psychiatrist spent most of the
time from Sept. 1, 1938 till Jan. 15, 1939 at the hospital having my
appendix removed and a ventral hernia fixed up.
Six weeks ago I returned from the sanitarium and your book was here
waiting for me. I read, more than that I pored over it so as not to
miss anything. I thought to myself, yes, this is the only way. God is
my only chance. I have prayed before but I guess not the right way. I
have followed out the suggestions in the book, I am happier this
moment than I have been in years. I'm sure I have found the solution,
thanks to ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS.
I have had talks with another man, an attorney, who was at the
sanitarium when I was. He has my book now and he is very much
enthused.
I go down to the sanitarium every week for a check-up and medicine
which they give me, just a tonic, no sedatives. The manager has asked
me to contact some of his patients along our line. How I told him I
would appreciate his letting me do so!
Would you put me in touch with some 'A.A.s' out here? I know it
would help me and help me to help others.
I hope you can make sense out of this letter. I could write so much
more but this I have written just as it popped into my head.
Please let me hear from you.
This man's lone struggle was impressive. Wouldn't the story of his
solitary recovery be helpful to many others who would have to start out
by themselves with only this book to aid them?
So we immediately sent him a wire:
JUST RECEIVED LETTER. MAY WE HAVE YOUR PERMISSION TO USE LETTER
ANONYMOUSLY IN BOOK AS FIRST EXAMPLE OF WHAT MIGHT BE ACCOMPLISHED
WITHOUT PERSONAL CONTACT. IMPORTANT YOU WIRE THIS PERMISSION AS BOOK
IS GOING TO PRINTER.
ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS
His wire arrived next day:
PERMISSION GRANTED WITH PLEASURE. LOTS OF LUCK.
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