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Manhattan
Group
New York City, N.Y., 1955
By Bill W.
Already, the history of AA is being lost in the mists of its
twenty-one years of antiquity. I venture that very few people here
could recount in any consecutive way the steps on the road that led
from the kitchen table to where we are tonight in this Manhattan
Group.
It is especially fitting that we recount the history, because at St.
Louis this summer, a great event occurred. This Society declared that
it had come of age and it took full possession of its Legacies of
Recovery, Unity and Service. It marked the time when Lois and I,
being parents of a family now become responsible, declare you to be of
age and on your own.
Now lets start on our story.
First of all, there was the kitchen table which stood in a brownstone
house which still bears the number 182, Clinton Street, Brooklyn.
There, Lois saw me go into the depths. There, over the kitchen table,
Ebby brought me these simple principles now enshrined in our Twelve
Steps. In those days, there were but six steps: We admitted we
couldn't run our lives; we got honest with ourselves; we made a
self-survey; we made restitution to the people we had harmed; we tried
to carry this story one to the next; and we asked God to help us to do
those things. That was the essence of the message over the kitchen
table. In those days, we were associated with the Oxford Group. One
of its founders was Sam Shoemaker, and this Group has just left
Calvary House to come over to these larger quarters, I understand.
Our debt to the Oxford Group is simply immense. We might have found
these
principles elsewhere, but they did give them to us, and I want to
again record our undying gratitude. We also learned from them, so far
as alcoholics are concerned, what not to do -- something equally
important. Father Ed Dowling, a great Jesuit friend of ours, once
said to me, "Bill, it isn't what you people put into AA that makes it
so good -- it's what you left out."
We got both sets of notions from our Oxford Group friends, and it was
through
them that Ebby had sobered up and became my sponsor, the carrier of
this
message to me.
We began to go to Oxford Group meetings right over in Calvary House,
where
you've just been gathering, and it was there, fresh out of Towns
Hospital, that I made my first pitch, telling about my strange
experience, which did not impress the alcoholic who was listening.
But something else did impress him. When I began to talk about the
nature of this sickness, this malady, he pricked up his ears. He was
a professor of chemistry, an agnostic, and he came up and talked
afterward. Soon, he was invited over to Clinton Street - our very
first customer.
We worked very hard with Freddy for three years, but alas, he remained
drunk
for eleven years afterward.
Other people came to us out of those Oxford Group audiences. We began
to go
down to Calvary Mission, an adjunct of the church in those days, and
there we
found a bountiful supply of real tough nuts to crack. We began to
invite them to Clinton Street, and at this point the Groupers felt
that we were overdoing the drunk business. It seemed they had the
idea of saving the world; besides, they'd had a bad time with us. Sam
and his associates he now laughingly tells me, were very much put out
that they had gathered a big batch of drunks in Calvary House, hoping
for a miracle. They'd put them upstairs in those nice apartments and
had completely surrounded them with sweetness and light. But the
drunks soon imported a flock of bottles, and one of them pitched a
shoe out the apartment window right through one of those stained glass
affairs of the church. So the drunks weren't exactly popular when the
Wilson's showed up.
At any rate we began to be with alcoholics all the time, but nothing
happened for six months. Like the Groupers, we nursed them. In fact,
over in Clinton Street, we developed in the next two or three years
something like a boiler factory, a sort of clinic, a hospital, and a
free boardinghouse, from which practically no one issued sober, but we
had a pile of experience.
We began to learn the game, and after our withdrawing from the Oxford
Group
-- oh, a year and a half from the time I sobered, in '34 -- we began
to hold
meetings of the few who had sobered up. I suppose that was really the
first
AA meeting. The book hadn't yet been written. We didn't even call it
Alcoholics Anonymous; people asked us who we were, and we said, "Well,
we're a
nameless bunch of alcoholics." I suppose the use of that word
"nameless" sort
of led us to the idea of anonymity, which was later clapped on the
book at the time it was titled.
There were great doings in Clinton Street. I remember those meetings
down in
the parlor so well. Our eager discussion, our hopes, our fears -- and
our fears were very great. When anyone in those days had been sober a
few months and slipped, it was a terrific calamity. I'll never forget
the day, a year and a half after
he came to stay with us, that Ebby fell over, and we all said,
"Perhaps this is going to happen to all of us." Then, we began to ask
ourselves why it was, and some of us pushed on.
At Clinton Street, I did most of the talking, but Lois did most of the
work, and the cooking, and the loving of those early folks.
Oh my! The episodes that there were! I was away once on a business
trip. (I'd briefly got back to business.) One of the drunks was
sleeping on the lounge in the parlor. Lois woke up in the middle of
the night, hearing a great commotion. He'd got a bottle; he'd also got
into the kitchen and had drunk a bottle of maple syrup.
And he had fallen naked into the coal hod. When Lois opened the door,
he asked for a towel to cover up his nakedness. She once led this
same gentleman through the streets late at night looking for a doctor,
and not finding a doctor, then looking for a drink, because, as he
said, he could not fly on one wing!
On one occasion, a pair of them were drunk. We had five, and on
another
occasion, they were all drunk at the same time!
There was the time that two of them began to belabor each other with
two-by-fours down in the basement. And then, poor Ebby, after
repeated trials and failures, was finally locked out one night. But
low and behold, he appeared anyway. He had come through the coal
chute and up the stairs, very much begrimed.
So you see, Clinton Street was a kind of blacksmith shop, in which we
were
hammering away at these principles. For Lois and me, all roads lead
back to
Clinton Street.
In 1937, while we were still there, we got an idea that to spread AA
we would have to have some sort of literature, guide rails for it to
run on so it couldn't get garbled. We were still toying with the idea
that we had to have paid workers who would be sent to other
communities. We thought we'd have to go into the hospital business.
Out in Akron, where we had started the first group, they had a meeting
and nominated me to come to New York and do all these things.
We solicited Mr. [John D.] Rockefeller [Jr.] and some of his friends,
who gave us their friendship but, luckily, not much of their money.
They gave Smithy [Dr. Bob] and me a little boost during the year of
1938, and that was all; they forced us to stand on our own.
In 1938, Clinton Street saw the beginning of the preparation of the
book Alcoholics Anonymous. The early chapters were written -- oh, I
should think
-- about May 1938. Then, we tried to raise money to get the thing
published,
and we actually sold stock to the local drunks in this book, not yet
written. An all-time high for promotions!
Clinton Street also saw, on its second floor, in the bedroom, the
writing of the Twelve Steps. We had got to Chapter Five in the book,
and it looked like we would have to say at some point what the book
was all about. So I remember lying there on the bed one night, and I
was in one of my typical depressive snits, and I had an imaginary
ulcer attack. The drunks who were supposed to be contributing, so
that we could eat while the book was being written, were slow on the
contributions, and I was in a damn bad frame of mind.
I lay there with a pad and pencil, and I began to think over these six
steps that I've just recited to you, and said I to myself, "Well, if
we put down these six steps, the chunks are too big. They'll have to
digest too much all at once. Besides, they can wiggle out from in
between, and if we're going to do a book, we ought to break those up
into smaller pieces."
So I began to write, and in about a half an hour, I think, I had
busted them up into smaller pieces. I was rather pleasantly surprised
that, when numbered, they added up to twelve -- that's significant.
Very nice.
At that point, a couple of drunks sailed in. I showed them the
proposed Twelve Steps, and I caught fits. Why did we need them when
six were doing fine? And what did I mean by dragging God from the
bottom of the list up to the top?
Meanwhile the meetings in the front parlor had largely turned into
hassles over the chapters of the book. The roughs were submitted and
read at every meeting, so that when the Twelve Steps were proposed,
there was a still greater hassle.
Because I'd had this very sudden experience and was on the pious side,
I'd
lauded these Steps very heavily with the word "God." Other people
began to say, "This won't do at all. The reader at a distance is just
going to get scared off. And what about agnostic folks like us?"
There was another terrific hassle, which
resulted in this terrific ten-strike we had: calling God (as you
understand Him) "the Higher Power," making a hoop big enough so that
the whole world of alcoholics can walk through it.
So, actually, those people who suppose that the elders of AA were
going around in white robes surrounded by a blue light, full of
virtue, are quite mistaken. I merely became the umpire of the immense
amount of hassling that went into the preparation of the AA book, and
that took place at Clinton Street.
Well, of course, the book was the summit of all our hopes at the time;
along
with the hassling, there was an immense enthusiasm. We tried to
envision
distant readers picking it up and perhaps writing in, perhaps getting
sober. Could they do it on the book?
All of those things we speculated on very happily. Finally, in the
spring of 1939, the book was ready. We'd made a prepublication copy
of it; it had got by the Catholic Committee on Publications; we'd
shown it to all sorts of people; we had made corrections. We had
5,000 copies printed, thinking that would be just a mere trifle --
that the book would soon be selling millions of copies.
Oh, we were very enthusiastic, us promoters. The Reader's Digest had
promised
to print a piece about the book, and we just saw those books going out
in carloads.
Nothing of the sort happened. The Digest turned us down flat; the
drunks had
thrown their money into all this; there were hardly a hundred members
in AA.
And here the thing had utterly collapsed.
At this juncture, the meeting -- the first meeting of the Manhattan
Group, which really took place in Brooklyn -- stopped, and it stopped
for a very good reason.
That was that the landlord set Lois and me out into the street, and we
didn't even have money to move our stuff into storage. Even that and
the moving van -- that was done on the cuff.
Well, it was then the spring of 1939. Temporarily, the Manhattan
Group moved
to Jersey. It hadn't got to Manhattan yet. A great friend, Horace C.,
let Lois and me have a camp belonging to himself and his mother, out
at Green Pond. My partner in the book enterprise, old Hank P., now
gone, lived at Upper Montclair.
We used to come down to 75 William Street, where we had the little
office in
which a good deal of the book was actually done. Sundays that summer,
we'd
come down to Hank's house, where we had meetings which old-timers --
just a
handful now in Jersey -- can remember.
The Alcoholic Foundation, still completely empty of money, did have
one small
account called the "Lois B. Wilson Improvement Fund." This
improvement fund
was fortified every month by a passing of the hat, so that we had the
summer
camp, we had fifty bucks a month, and someone else lent us a car to
try to
revive the book Alcoholics Anonymous and the flagging movement.
In the fall of that year, when it got cold up there at the summer
camp, we moved down to Bob V.'s. Many of you remember him and Mag.
We were close by
the Rockland asylum. Bob and I and others went in there, and we
started the
first institutional group, and several wonderful characters were pried
out of
there. I hope old Tom M. is here tonight -- Tom came over to the V's,
where
he had holed up with Lois and me, then put in a room called Siberia,
because
it was so cold.
We bought a coal stove for four dollars and kept ourselves warm there
during
the winter.
So did a wonderful alcoholic by the name of Jimmy. He never made
good.
Jimmy was one of the devious types, and one of our first remarkable
experiences with Jimmy was this. When we moved from Green Pond, we
brought Marty with us, who had been visiting, and she suddenly
developed terrible pains in her stomach.
This gentleman, Jimmy, called himself a doctor. In fact, he had
persuaded the
authorities at Rockland that he was a wonderful physician. They gave
him full access to the place. He had keys to all the surgical
instruments and incidentally, I think he had keys to all the pill
closets over there.
Marty was suffering awful agonies, and he said, "Well, there's nothing
to it, my dear. You've got gallstones." So he goes over to Rockland.
He gets himself some kind of fishing gadget that they put down gullets
to fish around in there, and he fishes around and yanks up a flock of
gallstones, and she hasn't had a bit of
trouble since. And, dear people, it was only years later that we
learned the
guy wasn't a doctor at all.
Meanwhile, the Manhattan Group moved to Manhattan for the first time.
The folks over here started a meeting in Bert T.'s tailor shop. Good
old Bert is the guy who hocked his then-failing business to save the
book Alcoholics Anonymous in 1939.
In the fall, he still had the shop, and we began to hold meetings
there. Little by little, things began to grow. We went from there to
a room in Steinway Hall, and we felt we were in very classic and good
company that gave us an aura of respectability.
Finally, some of the boys -- notably Bert and Horace -- said, "A.A.
should have a home. We really ought to have a club." And so the old
24th Street Club, which had belonged to the artists and illustrators
and before that was a barn going back to Revolutionary times, was
taken over. I think Bert and Horace signed the first
lease. They soon incorporated it, though, lest somebody slip on a
banana peel outside. Lois and I, who had moved from the V's to live
with another A.A., then decided we wanted a home for ourselves, and we
found a single room down in a basement on Barrow Street in Greenwich
Village.
I remember Lois and me going through Grand Central wondering where
we'd light
next, just before the Greenwich Village move. We were very tired that
day, and we walked off the main floor there and sat on one of those
gorgeous marble stairways leading up to the balcony, and we both began
to cry and say, "Where will we ever light? Will we ever have a home?"
Well, we had one for a while in Barrow Street. And when the club was
opened
up, we moved into one of those rooms there. Tom M. came over from the
V's,
and right then and there a Tradition of Alcoholics Anonymous was
generated. It seemed that volunteers had been sweeping the club; it
seemed that many of the alcoholics had keys to the club; and they came
and went and sometimes stayed; and sometimes they got very drunk and
acted very badly -- doing we know not what. There had to be somebody
there to really look after the place. So we thought we'd approach old
Tom, who had a pension as a fireman. We said, "Tom, how would you
like to come and live at the club?"
Tom says, "What's on your mind?"
"Well," we said, "we really need somebody here all the time, you know,
to make the coffee and see that the place is heated and throw some
coal on that furnace over there and lead the drunks outside if they're
too bad."
"Ain't ya gonna pay me?" Tom says.
"Oh, no," we said. "This is Alcoholics Anonymous. We can't have any
professionals."
Tom says, "I do my Twelfth Step work, I don't charge 'em nothing. But
what
you guys want is a janitor, and if you're going to get me, you're
going to pay, see?"
Well, we were very much disturbed about our own situation. We weren't
exactly paid -- they were just passing the hat for us, you
understand. I think that we went for seven years of the history of
this Society with an average income of seventeen hundred bucks a year,
which, for a former stockbroker, is not too big.
So this question of who is a professional and who isn't bore very
heavily at the time on Tom and me. And Tom began to get it settled. He
began to show that if a special service was asked from anybody
full-time, we'd have to pay or not get it.
So, finally, we haggled Tom down on the theory that he already had a
pension,
and he came to live there, and meetings began in that old club.
That old club saw many a terrific development, and from that club
sprang all the groups in this area. The club saw the passage of the
Rockefeller dinner, when we thought we'd all be rich as a movement,
and Mr. Rockefeller saved us by not giving us money.
That club saw the Saturday Evening Post article published. In fact,
the Post at that time said, "No pictures, no article." If you will
look up the March 1, 1941, issue of the Saturday Post, you will see a
picture of the interior of the club, and a flock of us sitting before
the fire. They didn't use our names, but they insisted on pictures.
Anonymity wasn't then quite what it is today. And with the advent of
that piece, there was a prodigious rush of inquiries -- about 6,000 of
them.
By this time, we'd moved the little office from Newark, New Jersey,
over to Vesey Street. You will find in the old edition of the book
[Alcoholics Anonymous] "Box 58, Church Street Annex." And that was the
box into which the first inquiries came. We picked out that location
because Lois and I were drifters, and we picked it because it was the
center of the geographical area here. We didn't know whether we'd
light in Long Island, New Jersey, or Westchester, so the first A.A.
post office box was down there with a little office alongside of it.
The volunteers couldn't cope with this tremendous flock of inquiries
-- heartbreakers, but 6,000 of them! We simply had to hire some
help. At that
point, we asked you people if you'd send the foundation a buck apiece
a year,
so we wouldn't have to throw that stuff in the wastebasket. And that
was the
beginning of the service office and the book company.
That club saw all those things transpire. But there was a beginning
in that club at that time that none of us noticed very much. It was
just a germ of an idea. It often looked, in after years, as though it
might die out. Yet within the last three years, it has become what I
think is one of the greatest developments that we shall ever know, and
here I'm going to break into my little tale to introduce my partner in
all this, who stayed with me when things were bad and when things have
been good, and she'll tell you what began upstairs in that club, and
what has eventuated from it. Lois."
(Lois then spoke about the formation and the early days of Al-Anon
Family
Groups.)
So, you see, it was in the confines of the Manhattan Group of those
very, very early days that this germ of an idea came to life. Lois
might have added that since the St. Louis conference, one new family
group has started every single day of the week since, someplace in the
world.
I think the deeper meaning of all this is that AA is something more
than a quest for sobriety, because we cannot have sobriety unless we
solve the problem of life, which is essentially the problem of living
and working together. And the family groups are straightening out the
enormous twist that has been put on our
domestic relations by our drinking. I think it's one of the greatest
things that's happened in years.
Well, let's cut back to old 24th Street. One more thing happened
there:
Another Tradition was generated. It had to do with money. You know
how slow
I was on coming up with that dollar bill tonight? I suppose I was
thinking back -- some sort of unconscious reflex.
We had a deuce of a time getting that club supported, just passing the
hat, no fees, no dues, just the way it should be. But the no fee and
dues business was construed into no money at all -- let George do it.
I'd been, on this particular day, down to the foundation office, and
we'd just put out this dollar-a-year measuring stick for the
alcoholics to send us some money if they felt like it. Not too many
were feeling like it, and I remember that I was walking up and down
the office damning these drunks.
That evening, still feeling sore about the stinginess of the drunks, I
sat on the stairs at the old 24th Street Club, talking to some
would-be convert. Tom B. was leading the meeting that night, and at
the intermission he put on a real plug for money, the first one that
I'd ever heard. At that time, money and spirituality couldn't mix,
even in the hat. I mean, you mustn't talk about money! Very
reluctantly, we'd gone into the subject with Tom M. and the landlord.
We were behind in the rent.
Well, Tom put on that heavy pitch, and I went on talking to my
prospect, and as the hat came along, I fished in my pocket and pulled
out half a buck.
That very day, I think, Ebby had come in the office a little the worse
for wear, and with a very big heart, I had handed him five dollars.
Our total income at that time was thirty bucks a week, which had come
out of the Rockefeller dinner affair; so I'd given him five bucks of
the thirty and felt very generous, you see.
But now comes the hat to pay for the light and heat and so forth --
rent -- and I pull out this half dollar and I look absent-mindedly at
it, and I put my hand in the other pocket and pull out a dime and put
it in the hat.
So I have never once railed at alcoholics for not getting up the
money. There, you see, was the beginning of two A.A. Traditions --
things that had to do with professionalism and money.
Following 1941, this thing just mushroomed. Groups began to break off
out
into the suburbs. But a lot of us still wanted a club, and the 24th
Street Club just couldn't do the trick. We got an offer from Norman
Vincent Peale to take over a church at 41st Street. The church was in
a neighborhood that had deteriorated badly -- over around Ninth Avenue
and 41st. In fact, it was said to be a rather sinful neighborhood, if
you gather what I mean. The last young preacher that Peale had sent
there seemed very much against drinking and smoking and other even
more popular forms of sin; therefore, he had no parishioners.
Here was this tremendous church, and all that we could see was a
bigger and
bigger club in New York City. So we moved in. The body of the church
would
hold 1,000 people, and we had a hall upstairs that would hold another
800, and we visioned this as soon full. Then there were bowling
alleys downstairs, and we figured the drunks would soon be getting a
lot of exercise. After they warmed up down there, they could go
upstairs in the gymnasium.
Then, we had cooking apparatus for a restaurant. This was to be our
home, and we moved in. Well, sure enough, the place filled up just
like mad! Then, questions of administration, questions of morals,
questions of meetings, questions of which was the Manhattan Group and
which was the club and which was the Intergroup (the secretary of the
club was also the Intergroup secretary) began to get this seething
mass into terrific tangles, and we learned a whole lot about clubs!
Whilst all this was going on, the AA groups were spreading throughout
America
and to foreign shores, and each group, like our own, was having its
terrific
headaches. In that violent period, nobody could say whether this
thing would
hang together or not. Would it simply explode and fly all to pieces?
On
thousands of anvils of experience, of which the Manhattan Group was
certainly one (down in that 41st Street club, more sparks came off
that anvil than any I ever
saw), we hammered out the Traditions of Alcoholics Anonymous, which
were
first published in 1946 [April Grapevine]. We hammered out the
rudiments of
an Intergroup, which now has become one of the best there is anywhere,
right
here in New York.
Finally, however, the club got so big that it bust. The Intergroup
moved. So did the Manhattan Group, with $5,000 -- its part of the
take, which it hung on to. And from the Manhattan Group's experience,
we learned that -- although the foundation needs a reserve -- for
God's sake, don't have any money in a group treasury!
The hassles about that $5,000 lasted until they got rid of it somehow.
Then, you all moved down to dear old Sam Shoemaker's Calvary, the very
place
of our beginning. Now, we've made another move.
And so we grow, and such has been the road that leads back to the
kitchen
table at Clinton Street.
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